Sunday, December 10, 2006: talents for naught
i remember cheryl once telling me that if you playing an instrument for worship affects your own personal worship to God then its advisable that you dont play. its true though. i think it gets really distracting when i have to look for chords (cos i cant remember any chords, nor can i make them out of nothing instantly, i'm nowhere near that good), and i hate it when i make mistakes, especially when i play loudly or in the intro (many more other cases when i make mistakes while playing, but to many to slowly think and list).
today at evangel, playing alone (i call playing alone playing without a full band, especially without drums to drown out my mistakes) was scary, and it was a first. i think although most of the adults said it was okay, i still think it was pretty bad. but i'm thankful that i had kurby to accompany me on the guitar, so that my pauses didnt seem so abrupt. and i'm thankful also for evangel where i can hone the skills God has blessed me with with a congregation, because this church that i grew up in, has a small crowd, so everyone knows everyone, and we're a big happy family, so even if i screw up, no matter what, they will still smile and even say its okay, it really wasnt that bad. despite all my desperate attempts at trying to sight read the hymns (which btw, i fail EVERY sightreading test in every music exam. so thats to prove how BAD my sight reading is). i Really am thankful for that family in evangel.
well. through God's grace i pulled through. (:
hmm, went for lunch at food repb at wisma with the brmc people, and hung around with yx and prash until games. i got my new specs (: they look ultra cool man. (: i likeeee. anyway, then was games, as usual. playing captain's ball, and being lazy. which reminds me, today is such a day of injuries. we were playing softball right after it rained, and i slipped and fell cos the ground was still wet and i accidentally kicked the metal dustbin which needless to say fell to the ground with a resounding GONG and then i was so embarrassed because firstly, i slipped, and secondly, i slipped very ungracefully, and thirdly, my bum was sore.
THEN, that wasnt it. i was sitting down watching them play softball, and i was talking to claire when the softball HIT MY ARM. and trust me, what they call a softball, shouldnt be called a SOFTball cos its not SOFT at all. its UBER HARD and it hurt.
and ooh there's more, while we were playing captains ball, i was the captain and the ball hit my cheek. hard. and when i wasnt the captain edmund threw the ball and accidentally hit my other cheek. ouch lah. after that i didnt want to play anymore.
then was dinner, and it was quite fun (: and now i'm at home, after a nice cold shower, going off to play msn games. yay.
a shout of praise.
9:22 PM
